I am writing this journal to tell everyone I may not be on here as much for a couple weeks. Crack kinda gets in my way. Specifically the crack in my laptop screen that magically appeared after it stopped falling from my bed. But luckily I just started school again today, so I'm on the comps here at the library. So I'll only be on here maybe once or twice a week. That's all for now, I got get to the emissions testing place so I can renew my registration by the end of the month. Never had to do this before so wish me luck.

Out of school, feel like a lazy bastard even though I still have work everyday. I don't seem to know what to do with my free time anymore, mainly just watching Tv shows and movies on DVD. I get that feeling like I should be doing something, but I have nothing to do. I want to write but can't seem to bring myself to do it, even this journal is a strain. So I will stop till I have something important to say, or I just want a new journal up. Bye now.

Oh so blue tonight. I'm burning alive, 800 miles away it's snowing, and I'm sitting in 100 degree weather in a room facing the south. Old haunting thoughts plagues the days in waves, while horrid dreams fill the nights. It will pass, it always does. but the moment is here and is ever looming. It's only the first week or two of the summer and already it's getting to me, I may be insane by mid-summer, watch the Az news channels, I may be seen being stuffed in a padded room, screaming about the padding locking in the heat that will kill us all. I need to sleep, may I dream of nothing ever again...or bunnies, I like bunnies, floppy eared ones.

Well I had a pretty good B-day week. My birthday was on the 28th of Feb. and my family and I went to the Renaissance Festival which was fun, God even gave me sunburn for my birthday. I later got a 50 dollar B&N gift card. Then the next weekend we went up to my grandparents house and had BBQ chicken on the grill, good stuff. My aunt and cousin and my brother were there with their spouses, they gave me 20 dollar walmart giftcard, some junk food, and a series TV season I have to take back, cuz I already have it. Then to top it off on Monday we went to go see Watchmen (damn good, but not nearly as good as the graphic novel) then ate at Cheesecake Factory (favorite resturant). So all in all I had one hell of a great Birthday.

I haven't felt like myself in a long time. Who am I? A stupid cliche question, but one I can't really answer. Pointless pointless pointless goodbye